What Is Bulimia?
I believe that you already researched a lot about what Bulimia Nervosa is in order for you to look for this website. However, I want to stress the idea of what it is one more time. But if you think that you already heard about this information sooooooo many times, you can skip this part and go to the other sections. If you want a refresh, here we go!
The word “bulimia” is from a Greek word boulimia, which means “ravenous hunger”. To dissect each part of the word, bou- is a strong prefix that means “ox-hunger”, leile- is to “waste away”, and limos- is “hunger”. Thanks to the amazing language, we can almost understand the symptom of bulimia in this short 7 characters.
One day, X hung out with her friends. She had a pretty filling breakfast, but she cannot refuse the invitation of her friends to go to a local pizza restaurant to eat while chatting about life. X thinks it is fine to treat herself, so she eats one slice of pizza. “OMG, it tastes divine!” One more. “Uhmmm…”. Another. “So good”. One more. “ Last one”. Endless. She hasn’t eaten pizza for so long because she is trying to fit into the dress that she bought for a school dance. After lunch, they went to an ice cream shop. X thought she worked so hard that she treated herself to an ice cream cone. She arrived home. Sit on the couch. “ What have I done, what was I thinking, what did I do to ruin all the hard work that I have done!!!!!” She didn’t eat dinner. She only ate an apple the other day. She exercised for an extra hour. She refused to hang out with friends for the next week. She did not go to family dinner at her favorite place. She stared at the cookies. Her stomach whines at night. Until one day, her weight is lighter than before. She started to eat, she ate an extreme amount to congratulate herself. She felt guilty. She fasted again.
Endless cycles.
Do you relate?
That guilt, the fear of gaining weight, the fear of those chocolate bars and fried food will ruin all the hard work, the anxiety that bears on your heart everyday.
Look back, please, look back. Are those fastings really fixing the problems? It looks like a messy endless cycle. Does your body deserve the punishment? At the end of the day, I feel empty and regretful.
Dust off those negative thoughts, you deserve better.
“I do not want to live under the burden anymore. I want to pursue real happiness, that will fill me up with joy.”
Bulimia will not chase you for your entire life, when you put on the jacket of positivity, you are stepping on the right track of recovery.
Let's start from the ground, shall we?